From one to two to three

multiplying at an alarming rate

I’m just totally numb inside but you don’t see

multiplying at an alarming rate

you are all over me

you are on my arms and even my legs

you are only the temporary pain so that I feel something anything

I am desperate to feel something anything

blood mixed with tears

it’s scary how good it feels

doing this gets rid of all my anxiety and my fears

so I just keep doing it

so I just keep dragging this razor across my arm