People always tell you to live in the present moment if you’re depressed but the thing is they don’t realize the present moment sucks…

It sucks so much…the numbness the coldness…and yes maybe you’re living in the past thinking about past experiences but in the present moment…you’re alone…and the thoughts enter your head…you can yell at yourself to stop being a depressed loser but it doesn’t help..

It doesn’t make it go away…this awful feeling of numbness but yet complete and utter pain…is there…

You try to be good to yourself to love yourself but…you feel like trash…complete trash…you are a mess…but nobody sees that

They think you’re happy because you have become the perfect actor you see…

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